This probably isn't the right time to write this but I've gotta get it out on 'paper'.

In the Summer of 2010, I played for the GB Womens Inline Hockey Squad and was also Captain. It was my first time playing for GB. Had a great time playing in the AAU Junior Olympics and came home with 2 medals (Silver and Bronze in 2 different tournys, silver in International).

Time passed, new trials began, I duly went along. I worked my butt off, skated around that rink, made my passes, stopped all bar one player getting past me on defensive drills.

Then something that really shook me up today happened.

I got told that I didn't make the squad.

I'm confused, how do I go from Captain to not in the squad at all. And trust me, I'm not the only person confused by the move. A few of the other girls have asked why I've been cut and are also quite shocked by the news.

The only explaination I've had is that there were a greater number of girls at the trials than before.

I can't do anything about it, the decision has been made.

Nonetheless, it's really torn me up. I'm now doubting everything about myself and I'm not sure where to go from here in terms of my hockey.

Gotta say, this one really hurts.